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Derek
turning 18
22/07/89
* wishes *
to go canada for further studies
to be with her
to have no worries
to be able to enjoy life
everyone to be happy
travel around the world
to have all the time i want in the world
have a bigger bed
a good body shape
to grow taller
*want to*
find the 1 thats for me...
be at the beach...
go cycling...
watch sunset
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Friday, April 20, 2007
ytd went to celebrate sheena... darren and candida's birthday... went for steamboat and thx to carmens idea... we sorta get to prank the 3 of them... using cream and M&M... they were required to use their mouth to get 5 M&M out frm that plate of cream... it was quite fun ytd... haha... after that they aactually wanna go bowl... but in the end.... darren gtg.... so we went to play arcade instead... haha!!! then after that i got to send lauren home again... that is like the... 6th or 7th time? haha... even though its that little amount of time... im still happy....
today's lesson is super boring... so sian... i almost fell asleep in class la... wth... then did work... the listen to lecturer talk -.-... then after sch... met carmen lauren and angeline... then went to the atrium together... then actually wanna play dota with romeo to kill ai de... but then... stupid labtop cannot connect to internet... so in the end... never got to play... after that slack around for awhile... then see lauren and darren left for their cca... i feel kinda sad when they left together.... but it wasnt for me to choose....
then i went home... i felt wierd and had a wierd feeling that lauren isnt beside me... this kind of feeling is seriously undescribable... i cannot even find a word to explain the feeling i had while i was going home... sigh... how i wish i was able to go to sch and back home together with her everyday... i wouldnt want to have his kind of lonely feeling anymore... that feel sux... and lauren... i like u... i join in the fun of jokin and puttin darren and u together as i have no choice... even though i put u 2 together... my heart was in pain... as if its bleeding non stop... i hope u can understand... and will let me send u home everytime... and of course... i would want u to be my girl... i wanna take care of u... be there for u... and also... to be able to say it loudly to u... that i love u....
today's lesson is super boring... so sian... i almost fell asleep in class la... wth... then did work... the listen to lecturer talk -.-... then after sch... met carmen lauren and angeline... then went to the atrium together... then actually wanna play dota with romeo to kill ai de... but then... stupid labtop cannot connect to internet... so in the end... never got to play... after that slack around for awhile... then see lauren and darren left for their cca... i feel kinda sad when they left together.... but it wasnt for me to choose....
then i went home... i felt wierd and had a wierd feeling that lauren isnt beside me... this kind of feeling is seriously undescribable... i cannot even find a word to explain the feeling i had while i was going home... sigh... how i wish i was able to go to sch and back home together with her everyday... i wouldnt want to have his kind of lonely feeling anymore... that feel sux... and lauren... i like u... i join in the fun of jokin and puttin darren and u together as i have no choice... even though i put u 2 together... my heart was in pain... as if its bleeding non stop... i hope u can understand... and will let me send u home everytime... and of course... i would want u to be my girl... i wanna take care of u... be there for u... and also... to be able to say it loudly to u... that i love u....
Saturday, April 14, 2007
WOOOHOOO!!! i went ice skating ytd with people frm agra 1... but not all... it was hell lotsa fun... i cant skate well so... its kind of a disgrace... haha... or so i thought... but still i try my very best to learn and skate well... haha!!! i was jealous... JEALOUS JEALOUS JEALOUS!!! of darren of course... he is able to talk to her freely... and even when skating... they were holding hands... omg... lols... anyway... its no big deal la... but still im jealous of him... haha... then... had dinner together with darren... lauren... val... kaiyuan... romeo... meichan... seowwei and candida... (did i miss out anyone? hmmm... well guess not... haha...) and after that we went arcade... haha... then after that... went home with lauren and kaiyuan... haha... well... i think im quite noisy when im in the bus... haha... and LAUREN!!! UR SO BAD!!! saying that joke is offensive... haha... but i like it.. though its lame... lols... then after that... sorta walked her home... as i was supposed to have supper la... but in the end... canceled... too bad.. lols...
TODAY!!! went to play basketball with the usual friends... haha... i didnt really do much though... anyway i was tired also... so didnt really play until i sorta have the energy to chiong... haha!!! then they played 5 v 5 with the uncle and NS men... haha...we got owned =( they were li hai... haha... then while they were playing... i smsed her... haha... hmmm... then kenna suan by them la =.= haha... then after bball... we went lunch... with byran... tze hao and zhi peng... lols.. then went to tze hao hse wait for him to shower... then go police post cause byran found a NUS de ez link card.. lols... honest boy byran!!! then follow tze hao go cut hair... then come back home... haha!! thats all for ytd and today...
lauren... (theres always something i wanna tell u... i like u... and im jealous when ur so close to him... u said that i was always quiet and is like always thinking of stuffs... thats because i feel that im being outcasted... and also jealous.... i admit... sometimes is i thinking of stuffs... but most of the time... i was waiting... and thinking of wat to say to u... i really enjoyed looking at u smiling... u have a very sweet smile... and i like it loads... i never wish to see u sad again... if can... i would wan to give u happy times... that is if u will gimme a chance to do that... come to me... whenever u have problems... and i promise ill forever be there for u... and walk the path of difficult times together with u... i really wish to be with u... and i hope... that i will never have to leave u walking alone... i know now is not the rite time... but i wish to have an answer frm u...i think u will not be able to read this... but... i still post it up... well.. to prove my feelings for u are true.. =))
TODAY!!! went to play basketball with the usual friends... haha... i didnt really do much though... anyway i was tired also... so didnt really play until i sorta have the energy to chiong... haha!!! then they played 5 v 5 with the uncle and NS men... haha...we got owned =( they were li hai... haha... then while they were playing... i smsed her... haha... hmmm... then kenna suan by them la =.= haha... then after bball... we went lunch... with byran... tze hao and zhi peng... lols.. then went to tze hao hse wait for him to shower... then go police post cause byran found a NUS de ez link card.. lols... honest boy byran!!! then follow tze hao go cut hair... then come back home... haha!! thats all for ytd and today...
lauren... (theres always something i wanna tell u... i like u... and im jealous when ur so close to him... u said that i was always quiet and is like always thinking of stuffs... thats because i feel that im being outcasted... and also jealous.... i admit... sometimes is i thinking of stuffs... but most of the time... i was waiting... and thinking of wat to say to u... i really enjoyed looking at u smiling... u have a very sweet smile... and i like it loads... i never wish to see u sad again... if can... i would wan to give u happy times... that is if u will gimme a chance to do that... come to me... whenever u have problems... and i promise ill forever be there for u... and walk the path of difficult times together with u... i really wish to be with u... and i hope... that i will never have to leave u walking alone... i know now is not the rite time... but i wish to have an answer frm u...i think u will not be able to read this... but... i still post it up... well.. to prove my feelings for u are true.. =))
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
went back to sch today... labtop configuration... after that... went home to sleep... dunno y.. but felt super tired... so slept.... till 5++ woke up... saw lauren on9... chatted with her till now... then darren came on... and i asked stupid questions... then got his answers...
well... as i expected... he likes lauren... told her about it... and is waiting for her answer... its good for them isnt it? as for me... i freaking go asked her about it... and she didnt really gimme an answer... she jus say its not time for her to think of all these... meaning she not ready... then darren asked me indirectly if i still like lauren.. y did he still ask when he already know? got other meanings or wat i dunno... i jus feel like bursting...
same old me... listen to song and tears came rolling down... weak isnt it? im so weak... I FEEL SO FUCKING WEAK!!! WTF IS WRONG WITH ME... i dunno wats wrong with me... another sleepless nite for me i guess...
well... as i expected... he likes lauren... told her about it... and is waiting for her answer... its good for them isnt it? as for me... i freaking go asked her about it... and she didnt really gimme an answer... she jus say its not time for her to think of all these... meaning she not ready... then darren asked me indirectly if i still like lauren.. y did he still ask when he already know? got other meanings or wat i dunno... i jus feel like bursting...
same old me... listen to song and tears came rolling down... weak isnt it? im so weak... I FEEL SO FUCKING WEAK!!! WTF IS WRONG WITH ME... i dunno wats wrong with me... another sleepless nite for me i guess...
Monday, April 09, 2007
wow... its been 2 mths... and my life is getting fun... or so i thought... well... i got my reuslts and was being posted to NgeeAnn poly to study in ECYP(EngineeringCommonYearProgramme) and after the results of posting came out.. i continued to slack at home till its the day to submit the forms... then i got my lazy butt up and went to sch with justin.... thx justin... and sorry for acompanying me to sch so many times... hahaha!!!
then... it was time for... FOC CAMP~!!!! its not free of charge... but its freshmen orientation camp... hahas... alot of them got mistaken la... lols... at camp we have a main group and a sub group... our main group is called.... AGRAVAINE!!!! and sub group is called... AGRAVINE 1!!! well... i really had fun and stuffs at the camp la... then had a crush on a girl in my group since the first day... tried to talk to her and stuffs... tried to be myself... but i dunno y... seems so hard... i cant seems to do it... then i made a good buddy at that camp... sad thing is... he also likes her... wth... so ironic rite? no choice... lifes lidddat... and he seems to be closer to her...
well i admit im jealous of him... and the worse part is agravaine people also keep putting them together... making me feel much worse... and i know of a person that has the same feeling as me... haha... dun worry!!! we 2 suffer together ok? hahaha!!! sorry im talking to a guy there... lols... in any case... i jus wish her to get over her ex first... i think the others can wait... even if she chooses him in the end... ill respect her decision... cause... love is something that cannot be forced... oh well... guess ill end here for now...
DEREK(AGRAVAINE!!!)(he= darren she =lauren)
then... it was time for... FOC CAMP~!!!! its not free of charge... but its freshmen orientation camp... hahas... alot of them got mistaken la... lols... at camp we have a main group and a sub group... our main group is called.... AGRAVAINE!!!! and sub group is called... AGRAVINE 1!!! well... i really had fun and stuffs at the camp la... then had a crush on a girl in my group since the first day... tried to talk to her and stuffs... tried to be myself... but i dunno y... seems so hard... i cant seems to do it... then i made a good buddy at that camp... sad thing is... he also likes her... wth... so ironic rite? no choice... lifes lidddat... and he seems to be closer to her...
well i admit im jealous of him... and the worse part is agravaine people also keep putting them together... making me feel much worse... and i know of a person that has the same feeling as me... haha... dun worry!!! we 2 suffer together ok? hahaha!!! sorry im talking to a guy there... lols... in any case... i jus wish her to get over her ex first... i think the others can wait... even if she chooses him in the end... ill respect her decision... cause... love is something that cannot be forced... oh well... guess ill end here for now...
DEREK(AGRAVAINE!!!)(he= darren she =lauren)
Saturday, February 10, 2007
IM BACK!!! but sad... i got my result ytd... freaking emo at home the whole day... super disappointed... sigh... who can i blame but myself for not studying hard enough... well... GRATS TO ALL WHO HAVE DONE WELL!!! and all the best who have not done very well... i feel so bad disappointing so many people... my mom... my dad... my friends... and TONNY BRO!!! SO SORRY DISAPPOINT U LIDDAT... haix... but wats done is done... no point pondering over it... well i have to get on with my life anyway... i will do my best in watever course that im going to and work hard on it... never will want my parents to waste their money on me again!!! i promise!!
Monday, February 05, 2007
rite... im back... im here to thank all my friends... and my family... for giving me support in watever i do... help me out when im in need... especially my friends... and tonny bro... thx loads man... u guys are simply jus the best... helping me out every single time... giving me support and pushing me forward in life... i seriously thank u all...
ALRITE!!!! ITS BEEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST POST!!! hmm... oh well... doesnt really matters anyway... a new year is here... i wonder... will there be more joy and excitement then the last? or will it be worse? hmm... oh welll... no point in thinking of all this now... and... the worse thing to fear is here... MY O'LVL RESULT IS COMING THIS FRIDAY!!! HOLYSHIT!
wonder how will i fair... will i fail... or will i pass to go poly... really wish to go poly... and not to ite... cause of the influence... sigh... after so long... i thought i have changed... but i haven... many thingsstill stays the same... hope there will be a really HAPPY new year to me...
wonder how will i fair... will i fail... or will i pass to go poly... really wish to go poly... and not to ite... cause of the influence... sigh... after so long... i thought i have changed... but i haven... many thingsstill stays the same... hope there will be a really HAPPY new year to me...
Saturday, November 11, 2006
things changing for the better? or not? i wonder...