DeathBringger

2007-04-20T04:59:00.000-07:00

ytd went to celebrate sheena... darren and candida's birthday... went for steamboat and thx to carmens idea... we sorta get to prank the 3 of them... using cream and M&M... they were required to use their mouth to get 5 M&M out frm that plate of cream... it was quite fun ytd... haha... after that they aactually wanna go bowl... but in the end.... darren gtg.... so we went to play arcade instead... haha!!! then after that i got to send lauren home again... that is like the... 6th or 7th time? haha... even though its that little amount of time... im still happy....

today's lesson is super boring... so sian... i almost fell asleep in class la... wth... then did work... the listen to lecturer talk -.-... then after sch... met carmen lauren and angeline... then went to the atrium together... then actually wanna play dota with romeo to kill ai de... but then... stupid labtop cannot connect to internet... so in the end... never got to play... after that slack around for awhile... then see lauren and darren left for their cca... i feel kinda sad when they left together.... but it wasnt for me to choose....

then i went home... i felt wierd and had a wierd feeling that lauren isnt beside me... this kind of feeling is seriously undescribable... i cannot even find a word to explain the feeling i had while i was going home... sigh... how i wish i was able to go to sch and back home together with her everyday... i wouldnt want to have his kind of lonely feeling anymore... that feel sux... and lauren... i like u... i join in the fun of jokin and puttin darren and u together as i have no choice... even though i put u 2 together... my heart was in pain... as if its bleeding non stop... i hope u can understand... and will let me send u home everytime... and of course... i would want u to be my girl... i wanna take care of u... be there for u... and also... to be able to say it loudly to u... that i love u....

2007-04-14T03:41:00.000-07:00

WOOOHOOO!!! i went ice skating ytd with people frm agra 1... but not all... it was hell lotsa fun... i cant skate well so... its kind of a disgrace... haha... or so i thought... but still i try my very best to learn and skate well... haha!!! i was jealous... JEALOUS JEALOUS JEALOUS!!! of darren of course... he is able to talk to her freely... and even when skating... they were holding hands... omg... lols... anyway... its no big deal la... but still im jealous of him... haha... then... had dinner together with darren... lauren... val... kaiyuan... romeo... meichan... seowwei and candida... (did i miss out anyone? hmmm... well guess not... haha...) and after that we went arcade... haha... then after that... went home with lauren and kaiyuan... haha... well... i think im quite noisy when im in the bus... haha... and LAUREN!!! UR SO BAD!!! saying that joke is offensive... haha... but i like it.. though its lame... lols... then after that... sorta walked her home... as i was supposed to have supper la... but in the end... canceled... too bad.. lols...

TODAY!!! went to play basketball with the usual friends... haha... i didnt really do much though... anyway i was tired also... so didnt really play until i sorta have the energy to chiong... haha!!! then they played 5 v 5 with the uncle and NS men... haha...we got owned =( they were li hai... haha... then while they were playing... i smsed her... haha... hmmm... then kenna suan by them la =.= haha... then after bball... we went lunch... with byran... tze hao and zhi peng... lols.. then went to tze hao hse wait for him to shower... then go police post cause byran found a NUS de ez link card.. lols... honest boy byran!!! then follow tze hao go cut hair... then come back home... haha!! thats all for ytd and today...

lauren... (theres always something i wanna tell u... i like u... and im jealous when ur so close to him... u said that i was always quiet and is like always thinking of stuffs... thats because i feel that im being outcasted... and also jealous.... i admit... sometimes is i thinking of stuffs... but most of the time... i was waiting... and thinking of wat to say to u... i really enjoyed looking at u smiling... u have a very sweet smile... and i like it loads... i never wish to see u sad again... if can... i would wan to give u happy times... that is if u will gimme a chance to do that... come to me... whenever u have problems... and i promise ill forever be there for u... and walk the path of difficult times together with u... i really wish to be with u... and i hope... that i will never have to leave u walking alone... i know now is not the rite time... but i wish to have an answer frm u...i think u will not be able to read this... but... i still post it up... well.. to prove my feelings for u are true.. =))

2007-04-11T11:20:00.000-07:00

went back to sch today... labtop configuration... after that... went home to sleep... dunno y.. but felt super tired... so slept.... till 5++ woke up... saw lauren on9... chatted with her till now... then darren came on... and i asked stupid questions... then got his answers...

well... as i expected... he likes lauren... told her about it... and is waiting for her answer... its good for them isnt it? as for me... i freaking go asked her about it... and she didnt really gimme an answer... she jus say its not time for her to think of all these... meaning she not ready... then darren asked me indirectly if i still like lauren.. y did he still ask when he already know? got other meanings or wat i dunno... i jus feel like bursting...

same old me... listen to song and tears came rolling down... weak isnt it? im so weak... I FEEL SO FUCKING WEAK!!! WTF IS WRONG WITH ME... i dunno wats wrong with me... another sleepless nite for me i guess...

2007-04-09T19:12:00.001-07:00

wow... its been 2 mths... and my life is getting fun... or so i thought... well... i got my reuslts and was being posted to NgeeAnn poly to study in ECYP(EngineeringCommonYearProgramme) and after the results of posting came out.. i continued to slack at home till its the day to submit the forms... then i got my lazy butt up and went to sch with justin.... thx justin... and sorry for acompanying me to sch so many times... hahaha!!!

then... it was time for... FOC CAMP~!!!! its not free of charge... but its freshmen orientation camp... hahas... alot of them got mistaken la... lols... at camp we have a main group and a sub group... our main group is called.... AGRAVAINE!!!! and sub group is called... AGRAVINE 1!!! well... i really had fun and stuffs at the camp la... then had a crush on a girl in my group since the first day... tried to talk to her and stuffs... tried to be myself... but i dunno y... seems so hard... i cant seems to do it... then i made a good buddy at that camp... sad thing is... he also likes her... wth... so ironic rite? no choice... lifes lidddat... and he seems to be closer to her...

well i admit im jealous of him... and the worse part is agravaine people also keep putting them together... making me feel much worse... and i know of a person that has the same feeling as me... haha... dun worry!!! we 2 suffer together ok? hahaha!!! sorry im talking to a guy there... lols... in any case... i jus wish her to get over her ex first... i think the others can wait... even if she chooses him in the end... ill respect her decision... cause... love is something that cannot be forced... oh well... guess ill end here for now...

DEREK(AGRAVAINE!!!)(he= darren she =lauren)

2007-02-10T04:01:00.000-08:00

IM BACK!!! but sad... i got my result ytd... freaking emo at home the whole day... super disappointed... sigh... who can i blame but myself for not studying hard enough... well... GRATS TO ALL WHO HAVE DONE WELL!!! and all the best who have not done very well... i feel so bad disappointing so many people... my mom... my dad... my friends... and TONNY BRO!!! SO SORRY DISAPPOINT U LIDDAT... haix... but wats done is done... no point pondering over it... well i have to get on with my life anyway... i will do my best in watever course that im going to and work hard on it... never will want my parents to waste their money on me again!!! i promise!!

2007-02-05T19:41:00.000-08:00

rite... im back... im here to thank all my friends... and my family... for giving me support in watever i do... help me out when im in need... especially my friends... and tonny bro... thx loads man... u guys are simply jus the best... helping me out every single time... giving me support and pushing me forward in life... i seriously thank u all...

2007-02-05T19:29:00.001-08:00

ALRITE!!!! ITS BEEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST POST!!! hmm... oh well... doesnt really matters anyway... a new year is here... i wonder... will there be more joy and excitement then the last? or will it be worse? hmm... oh welll... no point in thinking of all this now... and... the worse thing to fear is here... MY O'LVL RESULT IS COMING THIS FRIDAY!!! HOLYSHIT!
wonder how will i fair... will i fail... or will i pass to go poly... really wish to go poly... and not to ite... cause of the influence... sigh... after so long... i thought i have changed... but i haven... many thingsstill stays the same... hope there will be a really HAPPY new year to me...

2006-11-11T20:50:00.000-08:00

things changing for the better? or not? i wonder...

2006-07-20T00:48:00.000-07:00

hey all... so long since i last post sia... hmmm... got nth up much... but its been a week since i have my good rest... i cant sleep everynight la... ppl tell me that maybe im too stress till i cant sleep... i was like... huh? me stress? im such a happy go lucky person la... lols...

hmm... happy birthday to all the july babies... lols... including myself... birthday is this weekend!!! finally im gonna turn 17... haha... hmmm... thats about it... im tired... im gonna go get some sleep... and... i might be closing my blog for good... yup.... thats about all...

SENTOSA!!!

2005-12-13T07:52:00.000-08:00

wooo!!!! this is actually the first time i went to sentosa... u believe it? if u dun also ur problem le... hahaz... anyway.... me shirlynn ken jason and rahman went there to help elaine celebrate her bd... lolx...

we went to the coffee shop @ harbourfront to have lunch first... than we took the shuttle bus to sentosa... hahaz... went to play in the sea... drag both shirlynn and elaine in to the sea... than play vollyball... than use vollyball to play soccer... lolx...

than after that we head 4 a swimming pool at xiang ge li la resort... we go there because we saw the dog shit on the sand... than the owner throw the dog in to the sea... disguisting rite? hahaz... than after that we head 4 palawan beach... go there they play vollyball i sit down there stare in to the space... hahaz...

than me and rahman went to play a round of pool.... heehe i was lucky to win him... cause the white ball went in... that was jus by luck la... haha... than after that shirlynn and elaine took a cart like thingy and went off with the beach patroler... left the 4 guys... hahaz... than we walk to 7 eleven... than we cannot find the girls... so we took the bus and went off... hehe... than they went missing... but thank god they call us to meet at the MRT station lucky we dun have to wait 4 them there if not we will be like goondos liddat...

than we went to have dinner at PS... went to KFC... than after that we went to the 7 eleven there to give her a birthday cake... hahaz... elaine... happy ma? lolx... thats about all la... hahaz...

2005-12-09T06:21:00.000-08:00

hmm.... today... as usual... me... gene... and ming hui went to swim at jun haos house... we swam continuasly... i swim for 20 laps... hahaz... after that i was soooo tired... than after that... we talked inside the pool... play water.... haha... than after that... we went 4 shower... than we went 4 lunch...

we had chicken chop rice... very nice and tasty... than after that... we went to play pool again... but than... eugene... as usual... went home... in the pool room.... we started with a warm up match... than the main match... hahaz... me and ming hui... forever draw.... till now... i still only win him 2 rounds... score is... 7:5 hahaz... wa lao... jun damn power sia... hahaz... he win both me and ming hui... but than after that.... we got win him back la... but his score is still higher... hahaz... i dunno why i always get my hand cut at table 20... so we jus now try table 20 again... and as usual... i cut my hand again... it hurt la... but not very painful... cause i use to it le... hahaz...

i still think of her... in the swimming pool when we are swimming and also when we are playin pool... looks like i still failedto burry my feelings 4 her.... but at least i managed to control it... i kept askin myself... am i worthy of her... and issit fate that is makin fun of me... haiz... i have been thinking of this question 4 a long time le... but... i still failed to get an answer.... well... i guess thats all 4 now...

today

2005-12-06T08:35:00.000-08:00

hmmm... today went to play pool with jun hao and ming hui.... hahaz... ming hui had a new hair cut oh~ hahaz... looking better in hes new hair style... hahaz.... anyway... as i was sayin... i went to play pool with them.... actually i had a victory of 3-0 against ming hui... but sadly... i suddenly lost my concentration... cause her smile and everything started to appear in my mind... so i lost 3 rounds to ming hui... so it became a tie... 3 - 3.... than came to jun hao... i lost to him once... same... i lost concentration.... than i lose to him once....

after losing so much... the jie jie at the pool there finally on some music to calm my mind down... so i was able to win ming hui 2 more rounds so the score is 5 - 3 and i won jun hao another 2 rounds.... so it became 2 to 1.... hahaz... not bad... i can actually fan bai wei sheng... hahaz... anyway... although that jie jie on the music and i was able to calm my mind... everything about her still continue to come in to my mind... i really miss her so much? i also dunno... cause i was confused at that moment... im now only suppose to take her as my friend... so i burried my feelings for her... haiz... but today... my feelings suddenly reappears again... hope im able to control it...

kaoz.... GENE!!! U BAKA!!! say want go than last min never go.... hahaz... dun worry la... i understands la... u be ur guai gia la... if not later ur mom no longer trust u arh... than u really will be in deep trouble sia... so its better for u to be more guai... hahaz... SI KIAT!!! u another 1... pang sei kia... always say u going than last min suddenly say cannot go... kaoz... u really arh... i really have nth to say u sia... haiz... u arh dun always ps people la... later next time no 1 1 to go out with u le arh... and plz la... grow up la... dun be like mei mei... so childish... ur 16 le... not 1 yrs old or 6 yrs old la... haiz... kkz ill end here le la... dunno wat else to write le... kk thats all ba...

sadz...

2005-11-29T18:40:00.001-08:00

hahaz... ytd night... i told my fl friends that im leaving the game already... all of them doesnt want me to leave... haha.... im so touched... thx u guys... 4 making my life a better 1... haha... i will no long trouble u all with my problems already... i believe its time for me to stand on my own feets le... i wish guys all the best in wat ever u do... good luck and take care!!!

ON MY BIRTHDAY!!!

2005-11-29T18:32:00.000-08:00

haha.... on this day... ( which is my birthday )... my friends celebrated it for me... haha... u all might not believe this... but its actually the first time i celebrate my birthday with my friends... i really enjoyed it alot... thx sophia, chee hoe, ephraim, mylene and mong han... u all really made this day the special day of my life... i will never forget it de...
hmm... we first went to the ticket booth to buy the movie tickets for our movie... can u all guess which movie? if ur guess is wet dreams 2 than u are rite!!! but this show... is more of a comedy than of a sencered show... next we went to cafe cartel ( which is very expensive ) to have our lunch... haha... we all share our food with each other... also feeding each other... very nice rite??
after our lunch... we went to take neoprint... and after finishing it... me sophia, ephraim and mong han went to watch movie as we thought that we were late 4 the movie... but in fact we were still early... we enjoyed the movie... but we all think that its a waste of money... so if u guys are thinking of watching it... dun go... its a waste of money..
after the movie... the 4 of us went to take neoprint again... i cant believe they actually sang the birthday song in front of a crowd lo... make me so happy and pai sei... haha... than we all go to KFC to cut the neoprint out... than suddenly.. sophia and mong han went missing... me and ephraim thought that they drop into the toilet bowl le.. than when we thought of leaving the place... the both of them came back... with a cheesecake!!! although i dun like cheese cake... i still ate it... cause its my BD cake...
after that ne... we all go on our separate way to go home... once again... i thank all of u for celebrating my birthday... and i really like it... thanks again... i will never ever forget this day de... believe me...

signing off....
date : 22/7/05

HEY!!

2005-11-29T18:29:00.000-08:00

hey all!! this is the first time im actually using this blog.... hehe... still dun really know how to use it yet... hahaz... anyway... jus informing u guys that i have a new blog... hahaz...